sorry

ARGHHH !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

second post of the day .. 

not a good sign ..

i'm stress enough ...

emo enough ..

headache enough ..

and yet ..

you still disturb me ... 

how many times i had told you about my feelings ... 

it doesn't work means it doesn't work ...

i got no feeling towards you .. and please respect my decision .. 

please respect me that i have someone who i love ...

and you clearly know who the person is ... 

its not about giving chances to others .. 

but feelings that matter ... 

i feel bad after telling you no .. after reject you again .. 

i feel guilty too ... 

shit .. can you not spoil my day .. when it is already not good ???

please just let me breathe normally for a day ...
you know very well that there is no way for our relationship as friend to go any further ... 

nothing more than a friend ...

and i'm sorry for hurting you again ...

you make it so hard for me ...

i hate to say no ... 

but you force me to do so ... 

i'm sorry once again ..

that i can't give you anything ..

because my heart is still occupied by the same person ...

someone who i love ...