Bye bye 2010 .. Hi hi 2011

*blink blink blink my eyes*
its already been a year ???
a year seems so short but yet so many things had happen within a year ..
it had been a tough year for me .. however it is interesting and challenging too ...
wow 0.o before i was actually writing this post ... i was thinking about what to write .. seems like there are lot of things that i actually wanted to write .. but now i'm kinda lost dunno what to write ... haha ...
what had happen throughout the year ?? plenty .... family ... study .. love ... health .... relationship ... arghhh ... too much to name it ...
the beginning of the year 2010 .. family problem ... due to some reason .. mummy get angry of us and doesnt want to take care of us anymore .. does that mean we are going back to our father ... cried for few days ... dont know what to do ...
it had been solved and now we stand strongly as a family ... hehe ...

then health problem ... my eyes ... how come the problem keep on coming back ??? this question keep bothering me throughout the year ( starting from May i guess) ...
and this time is the serious one cause it doesnt heal up well
 and .. ya ... new year eve ... the problem is back .... now i'm having a red and little swollen left eye .. writing my blog ... hahaha .... so what ... its not going to bother me anymore ... i'm still going to celebrate the last day of the year happily .. i'll smile and say bye bye to 2010 and hello to 2011 ... a great year .... and it will be ...
today when i wake up same problem appear again lo .. eye pain .. haiz ...
luckily the eye clinic is open ... if not ... you wont want to know what .. haha ...
today doctor suggested that ...i should go for a minor surgery ... em em em .. cant remember the name ...
but sound kinda scary ... should i go for it ...
lolx ... no matter i'm sure my eyes will heal up ...

love problem .. haiz .. headache part .. till now still headache .. dont know what to do ... the only thing i can say is .... appreciate what you have and never regret when you loss it because of yourself not appreciating it ...

haha ,,. forget the problem part ... what else happen this year .......................................................................
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..... ( shhhhh .... i'm thinking .... trying to remember what i did for the whole year ) ........................................
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oh ya ... now i remember .. i had change my hairstyle ..... 3 to 4 times ... hahahaha ... and now ... my friends says i look like mushroom @@ hahaha ... got to try a lot hairstyles .. still young ma .. can try ....

so ... from long light brown hairstyle ... to short bob reddish dark brown hairstyle ... then black again ... n now mushroom ... left short ... right long hairstyle ... so what's next in 2011 ??? boycut ??? no way ....

of course .. importantly ... my success report ...

throughout the year .... what do i learn .. what do i accomplish ... 

i'm grateful to have a family that support me .. some where that i can turn to when i'm lost ...

to have a lovely family

some friends ask me ... how do i stand with a mom who control my freedom ,...

cant go out at night .. cant go out all the time ... and also to tell her where i go all the time ....

this problem had also appear in my love life ...

how do i stand ...

??? ( some people often questioned me ) 

all i can say .. is .. this is how we stand strongly as a family ...

other people may not understand ..

but i seen how much my mom struggle throughout this 7 years ...

if u were me .... u would rather stay at home taking care of my siblings because this is all i can help my mom .

and this is me .... and i hope you would understand ...

next ... 

 my academic results is as i expected ... ( one of my biggest success)

and i will continue to achieve better ( CGPA 4)!!!!!

i have ji mui that i love ... 

that always around me to help me and be crazy with me ....

to love and appreciate everything in life because as Terence (owner) always say ... when love is around and you didnt appreciate it .... its your loss and it will never come back ...

so everyone who is reading this post .. appreciate people who loves you ....

show them what they meant to u ....

Had found a suitable eye doctor which is able to help in my eye problem ...

i'm sure this doctor will help me ...

however, there some wishes that had not been granted ... hahahaa ....

n yet some were not accomplish yet ...

and i'll try my best i completing it in 2011

new year means new resolution  ....

hahahah ..... 

got to write it down later after 12 am ...

HAPPY NEW YEAR !!!!! TO ALL MY FAMILY, FRIENDS, LOVE ONES AND EVERYONE...

WISHING YOU A GREAT NEW YEAR 

A GREAT YEAR AHEAD ....

its time to look forward but not the past ... ♥

Love ,

Lorna lolo

Finally..

Finally all assignment for this semester had been completed successfully .. hehe ..
after all the hard work and time placed on it ... I'm sure all my assignment will be a good piece of work ...
even though didn't apply scholarship di .. i still wan to achieve more than 3.7 .. YES N I WILL DO IT ..
i know i had place tons of stress on myself .. but its a good thing right ?? haha ..
A motivation to make me study ...
=D
since got no assignment di ... something fills my mind ...
2010 is ending soon ...
its time to review my success report for the year ....
what had i did n achieve this year ...????
will see it on 31 December 2010...
my success report ...
haha ...

A Letter From Me to You

Dear,

Whr hav u been ???

Wen will u be coming back ?? or u will nvr come back ??

coz u had forgotten my existence , had forgotten dat i'm still here waiting for u to look back n realize my love.

thr is nth i can do in dis moment .... no matter how much i cried .... how much i care ... how much i try to get into ur life .... i'm not thr nymore ... i guess i dun belong in ur heart nymore .... or maybe thr is no place for me to stay in ur heart ....

do u noe how painful am i ?? maybe dis is wat i deserve from u ...

how long more can i stand without u in my life ....

all i can do is to stand in a corner , away from ur sight n to see u smile ...

ur smile is the greates happiness i could get ... but it doesnt belong to me nymore ...

i wish i could grab it n nvr let go ... nvr let u leaving me nymore ...

will u continue writing our fairytale story wit me ??

i wish u would ....

i love u more than everythg in the world but i noe my love came too late ...

wen i realise it, u had already leave my life ... leave me ...

sumtimes i feel dat ...

u r avoiding me .... keeping me aside .... maybe wat u did is to stop me from loving u ....

maybe i'm d 1 who doesnt accept the fact till now ....

coz i dun believe dat everythg had end  ....

thr's lot of thg dat i wish i could ask u .....................

but wat i wanted to noe d most is ....

Do u still love me ??

'I finally got my
past, present and future tenses correct
today. I loved you. I love you. I will
love you forever!'

dis is smthg from u last time ....

will u ?

'today ... tomorrow ... always .. .

all my love will be yours'



Dear, I Love You.



love lolo

Crazy

I miss u ..  i'm seriously missing u every moment of my life ...
everytime i close my eyes i'll see u all over my mind ...
everything i do remind me of u .. even every songs dat i listen relates to u ... maybe i'm crazy ...
crazy loving u ...

A beautiful sunset

life maybe hectic ..

but sumtimes try to stop ur bz life ...

n ..

spend a few seconds to see everythg around u ..

 u might see ..

smthg beautiful ..

n..

it might worth a smile from u ...

love lolo

Sweet dream

awwww ... so sweet ...........

( i shudnt have walked away, i would've stayed if u say, we could've made, everything ok, but we just ....)

wondering wat sound is dat ???

arghhh !!!!!!!! awaken by my alarm .... ( song : angels cry by mariah carey)

oh no .. thr goes my sweet dream ....

haiz ... its been awhile since the previous dream of u ..

i guess i think too much of u till dream of u ...

i seriously miss u ... but do u ??

hmm ... i've been keeping myself bz to avoid free time ... so that i wont be thinking of u dat much ....

but i do end up spending my time missing n thinking of u ...

sumtimes i pick up my hp .. texting msg but end up saving it as draft ....

y not sending it out u might ask ... i'm oni afraid ... dat i distrub him ...

seeing him on9 .. in fb n msn .. i hav the urge to talk to him but smthg pull me back ...

smthg said no ...

i do miss talking to him ...

seeing him dat day makes me feel more empty ...

it seems like my wound is not healed yet ...
still painful....

n yet still visible ...

wat can i do ???

hmmm ....

if i could restart smthg or perhaps to be granted a wish ... it would be restarting everythg between us ....

will thr be a day whr u will be back by myside n filling my empty heart again???

i'm trying to recall my dream .. all i remember i smthg sweet wit u .. details all cant remember....

Starbucks day .. Movie nite ...

Yesterday go yum cha wit syn , kwek , sy n cy @ Starbucks ...( actually they teman me go collect movie ticket) .... hehe
weeee ....... chocolate cream chip ..... yummy .....
♥♥♥ can feel the love wen drink it ....
n the love continue wen i saw u .. hehe ....
long time din see u le ... miss ya ... ♥

♥

then wen to class ...
after class rush home then go watch Harry Potter wit family ...
haha ... nice movie .. but hate it coz need to wait for part 2 !!!!
arghh .. dowan to wait .....

hehe ....  go The Curve twice a day .. crazy ...
haha .. but ...
its a wonderful day .... ♥

Listen to the rhythm of the pouring rain .....

had been raining for few nites ... good .... then can sleep better .. but hate it wen it coz traffic jam ...
while we were going out for dinner last nite ....
as usual lo ..
rain ... then stuck in jam ....
haha .. i got nth to do n i took a picture of rain ....

its so quite in the car n u can actually listen to the rhythm of the rain ...
i closed my eyes ...... n it actually drift me away from prob dat i'm facing ...
haha ... i feel like getting out from the car n play under the rain ...
nvr try b4 ... haha ...

Loving you ....

I wish i could tell u dat ....

Do you ???

Crysella angels ♥

haha .. 2day got nth to do ... search thru my pendrive ...
found pictures of flowers dat i made for drama presentation ( during foundation sem3) and also pictures of us ... crysella angels ... haha ...
miss the time wen we practice together and dance together ....
although we had gone thru lot hard time ...
but it will be a good memory between us ...

miss u all ...
♥

My broken heart ....

oh no ....

my handphone string fall off again ...

arghh .. ad fixed it a few times .......

dis time smthg pops into my mind .....

thg dat had break can be fixed n can be fixed in numeruos time ...

but broken heart cant be fixed nor heal ... it might heal but not an easy process....

not a simple 1 neither .... 

hmm ... but i do realise when thr is pain ... thr is love too ...

coz wen u go thru pain u will learn to appreciate it ..............

haha ... i've been keeping myself away from pain n sadness for some time .... 

all i did was to think of sweet sweet sweet memories ...

haha ..

at least it brings me happiness ....

smile n be happy ..

coz happiness is waiting for u ...

Love lolo♥

My Bday ...♥

141110♥
Thank you Mummy , Brit , Kenix and Nixen ... tq so so much ..
tq for giving me a simple yet meaningful day ...
tq for a lovely bday celebration..
tq for being with me on my special day ..
tq mummy for bringing me to the world 20 years ago ...
hehe ....

finally turn 20 .. haha .. officially 20 years old ( carlyn will be laughing when she read this .. yes lyn finally i  join the group.. )
nothing much different .. still same old me ... still as lolo as i am ... haha ....
when the clock strike 12 am sharp ... something fills my mind ... what have i accomplish in 20 years time ....
i wonder .. haha ....

so what have i done on my day ...
went karaoke again ..
haha .. but this time with my family ....
actually my voice is not fully recover yet .. but who cares ...
what is important is to have fun with my family ..

breakfast @ Nyonya Colors

Karaoke moment ... @ Redbox



present from Brit & Kenix ...

haha .. body shop .... smthg dat i wanted to buy few months ago .. and now my sis bought it for me as present .. love u all ...

this is from Nixen ...

he is afraid that his sister me is not fat enough so bought me chips to make me fat .. hahaha .....

hehe .. mummy gav me angpou ... hehehe .... love love love ...... angpou is the best present to receive ... XD

something from me to me ....

haha .. high heels .. my love ... smthg that i bought for myself ... i also bought 2 t-shirt .. hehe ...
present for myself ... smthg to appreciate myself in being the best ... hehe .. tq lorna...

btw ... tq ... tq for the lovely n meaningful wishes that i receive on my bday from every1 around me .... ( receive more than 80 wishes in fb.. it might be a small amount to others but for me is more than enough coz all 80++ comment is from people that i call frens... n also not forgetting sms dat i receive .. tq)
tq my dear frens ... ur wishes brighten up my day more .... really appreciate every wishes that i receive and i will always treasure it up . love u all ... muahx ...

haha ... 141110 ... a day to remember ... n i had a great day ... tq ....
love lolo ... muahx...
♥

Early Bday Celebration ♥

finally i got the time to sit in front of my laptop ....
select pictures to post in fb .... and choose pic to edit .... and combine them together ....
my ji mui celebrated my bday with me yesterday (11/11/2010) ...
a kindda early celebration ... coz everyone is busy on weekends .....
haha ...

11/11/2010
early in the morning .. attend class lo .. leadership class ... and AIS ....
my ji mui surprise me with a miniature DKNY... Be Delicious .. perfume .... OMG ... so damn cute ...
the excitement continues when ....
the other surprice come ... DKNY ... Be Delicious .... fresh blossom ....
never thought of receiving this from my ji mui coz its too expensive ... also not forgetting ... ah ye also ...
tq ji mui and ah ye ... happy me ...

then after class ...
Syn , Soo yee , kwek and me went karaoke @ Neway ....
we sang almost 5 hours plus with taking pic time ( 1.30pm - 6.30pm)  ... haha .. we are crazy
sing sing sing .... high high high ... till all stand on the sofa .....
sing sing sing ....till no voice ..... especially me ....

Hui Wen , Chau Yea & Mr. T (<-- he dont let me put name) join us at 7pm ...
we went dinner @ Paddington Pancake House ( if i'm not mistaken this is the name)
the food there kindda nice .....
hehe ....
eat eat .. talk talk .... take pic ....
eat till 8 smthg .....
our lovely dinner was paid by Mr.T ... omg .. so pai seh .... he paid everything ...
tq tq ....

haha ... went home at 9pm ... 1st time went out with friends till night ...
most of us .. is so so so tired ...
i could barely move when i reach home ....

n .. taa daa ..... 2day wake up no voice ....
argghhhh ...
however i had a wonderful day with them ...
tq so so much for everything ...
love u all .... muahx♥

Blur me ....

arghhhhh ....
its been a few bad days for me ....
i fall sick in a sudden .. without any warning ... not even a lil sign ...
I've been blur for a few days .... sleep... wake up ... sleep .... wake up n eat ...
luckily i got no class for 5 days till wed ....
if not i wonder how to survive in class .... with a blank mind ....

finally the drama that i used to watch comes to a finale ....
awww ..... sweet ending ... though this type of ending consider lame for the others but i do still like happily ever after ...

after finishing the last episode of this drama ...
it makes me think of you again ...
few days ago ... i thought of letting go .... or not to let go ....
i once again struggle with decision ....
friends keep on telling me to let go ... not worth it .... n bla bla bla ....
but who does really understand how i feel and what i want ....

now ... to let go or not to let go  .... is no longer a decision to be made .....
because i know no matter what i decide .... it will never turn everything back to the way i want it to be ....
i know i should not look back but to look forward ...
what had past had past .....
however .. it is impossible for me to forget .. everything between us .....

when i was struggling with fever .. sore throat .... n pain .....
i wish you were here for me ...
a warm gentle hug might reduce my pain ....
hoping for your smile .... telling me its ok ... i will be fine after a few days ...
i end up crying myself to sleep ....
i wish i could tell u how much i miss you ....
how much i need you ....
but i know i will never have a chance to tell you anymore......

the only way to keep myself alive is to treasure up all our sweet memories .....
the only way to smile is to know that you are happy with your life ....

i do still have a lil wish ... which is to celebrate my 20th b'day with you ....
n I'm still hoping it to happen ....
XOXO

A wonderful day with my family ♥

Happy Deepavali !!!!
haha ...
me n my family wen out go makan makan ...
so fun ....
Went to Mont Kiara .... Kenix's frenz b'day ....
after dropping her at her frenz's place then we head to vegetarian restaurant ....
the food thr is super yummy ......
hehehe ....
eat till full full ...

poor Kenix miss the fun eating ... but i guess she had fun at her frenz house ...

after eating still early ... went to Bangsar Village ...

my very cool de sis n bro ... ^^

after picking her up @ 2pm ...

we went to Tropicana City ...

we got nothing to do ... n we went eating again ... hahahaha

eat @ Vivo ...



yummy food ^^



Drinks ^^

a fun day that fills up with delicious food ....
yummy ^^ ..
eat eat eat = fat fat fat
happy ♥

Complete .....

Finally ..... my leadership assignment is complete .... after 2 weeks of hard work....
my assignment = my baby .....
hehehehehe ...
so before we pass it up .....
we go to rank our own assignment .....
so i had rank it .... 75 .....
feel so satisfied now ....
n hopefully ... em not hope .... it will be a good piece of work ....
which gives me an A ... hehehe

Home made pizza ♥

Home made pizza ..... my last nite dinner ....
made from ....
pita bread .....
thousand island ....
toppings .. include ..... onion... button mushroom ... tomato ... carrot .....
n most important ..... CHEESE

its as easy as 123 ...

put any toppings that u prefer ..... top wit cheese .....

put into the oven ....

and serve ....

yummy ....

Rainbow ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

weeeeeee......
rainbow .... me likey ....
so nice ...... ♥

LEADERSHIP

leadership !!!!!!!
the only thing that fills up my mind now ...
arghhh ...... and í'm still stuck with it ...
what to write ???? where to find relevant information ???? how to start ????? when can i finish ????
inhale ... exhale ... inhale ..... exhale ...
feels like cant breathe .....
deadline is soon ... SOON .... and i'm still blur .... die la ....
hmmm ,,,,
trying to calm myself down ....
i'm sure i can do itt no matter what ...
how hard could it be ....

Scarf Day !!!

haha ...
this idea was suggested by Soo Yee .....
interesting ....  so we really did it ....
except for Kwek claiming that she doesnt have a scarf ...

we only manage to take 3 picture ....
hui wen is a sleepy head which fall asleep in the class ... so she didnt take picture with us ...
Soo yee and Liang syn is soo gonna kill me when they see this picture here ...
hahaha ...

10 Things I Love About You

Since today is 10/10/10 ..
Something come across my mind ....
10 things that i love about you .....

1) the simplicity of you
-everything of you is simple ... nothing complicating .... right = right , wrong = wrong ... you will voice out whatever that you dislike.
2) your sweetness
- everything from you is as sweet as sugar and it makes me melt all the time.
3) your cuteness
- you will always disagree this .. you are cute little piggy ... which sleep sleep sleep ...
4) your wu liao-ness
- your randomness make me smile ... even though it may not make sense sometimes but it keeps me happy .
5) you are a gentlemen
- you open doors for girls ( where mostly guys won’t do it nowadays and they expect girls to do it ) and importantly you treat girl well .
6) your creativity in surprising me
- you give me lot of sweet memories that i will keep for the rest of  my life
7) the way you care for me
- you will always be there for me no matter what happened .
8) your love to me
- your love is unlimited ...
9) your the only one who made me realised a lot of things
- most important was you made me realised i should appreciate you and what you had gave me
10) I LOVE YOU FOR WHO YOU ARE

Perfect 10

IT'S PERFECT 10 TODAY 10/10/10 !!!!
a very special date .. so most probably lots of ppl getting married today ...
besides that .. its a sunday ... means family day ...
what we did ??? GO SHOPPING LO ...
but we only went Empire Shopping Gallery @ Subang
kindda bored .. because not much shop there ...
however we found something interesting ....
giant slide ...
Kenix wanted to give a try but not Nixen ...
Nixen is always a pok pok (chicken) ...
haha .. Kenix said its fun ..
well i cant try it out cause I'm too fat for it ... haha .. jk .. cause i'm wearing skirt la ...

haha .... its a great day ...
however ... perfect 10 is not that perfect without you ....

I MISS YOU

yawn ...

wake up early in the morning .... (as usual )

go to college ..... attend class

talk talk talk ..

listen listen listen ..

write write write ...

its just another ordinary day till i realise the date .... ( when i was playing with Kwek's hand phone)

I stop for a moment and my mind was filled up with flashbacks.....

n it never stop playing in my mind ...

most of them were memories being with you ...

(^.^) sweet memories..

but then i noticed ... that ...

time actually passed by very fast ...

and sometimes you won’t even notice how fast it is .....

everything was like yesterday but it had already been a year ....

I smiled throughout the flashbacks...

haha ...

when i am writing this page ....

something pops into my mind ..

there were once I asked u to think a name for our blog ...

but...

we didn't manage to do so ...

I wonder will we still have a chance to write this blog together .....?



you will always be in my heart ♥

U changed ???

I spend a few days thinking whether you had really change ...

or

i don't understand you anymore...

you are different ....

from the past ( when i just got to know u )...

few months ago ....

and ...

NOW ....

its like I'm looking at 3 different person ..

but which is the REAL you ...

it feels like ....

I don't know you anymore ...

no matter how hard i try ,,,

its seems like there is wall between us...

 and

 I'll never reach the other side where you belong ...
does this mean its time to let go ???

past... few months ago ... and now ...

same bear but different colour = different behaviour ....

I'm tired ..

trying my very best to reach your heart ...

We ♥ Grandpa

haha ..
wen i say grandpa doesn't mean old man ok ...

its my secondary school good friend .....

Carlyn and me ... his granddaughters ......

he is also 20 years old ... like us ( emm ... i'm still 19 years old) hehe ...

so he is back today from Malacca ....
we went out with him for lunch .... @ Full House ( Sunway Giza ) and deserts @ Tutti Fruity ..
yummy ,,,,,
grandpa say he just got his salary .... so everything is on him ....
hahaha ....
THANK YOU GRANDPA !!!!

Full House ....

Left: Alfredo Spaghetti

Right: Wok Sear Chicken Chop

Left: Pan Sear Dory Fish

Right: Ice Korean Lemon Citron Tea

Drinks ......

Left: Soda Red Apple Peppermint with Passion Fruit Pop

Right : Honeydew Milk

Center:Pearls that we found in Carlyn's drink .....

RM78.55 .. PAID by GRANDPA (^.^)

Frozen Yogurt @ Tutti Fruity

 But unfortunately we didn't manage to take picture together ....

Its a great day with friends ...

Kay-thoe Bday

Lil cousin B'day ...
Venue : The Club 
Date : 260910
Time : 1600

B'day Girl



Ice-cream cake from Baskin Robin ( my fav^.^)

Baby Ee-Jake







Like sister like brother ... XD



Happy Family (^.^)


Finally i got my time to upload Kay-thoe's bday party picture .... we actually took a lot of pictures but due to my laziness i only select a few which is nice .... =)