pain

when class starts .. i wonder a few things ...

what happen if i see you .. what happen if i bump into you ... 

what i.m afraid the most had happen .. today .. not a good day ..

i can hardly describe my feelings now ... 

i feel like crying again ... because its painful .... 

it feels like my wound that had just heal a lil had started to bleed again ... 

and it bleeds more ........... the pain is unbearable ....

i didn't know what to do ... 

i was talking to my friend when i saw you ..  after seeing you .. 

i cant hardly continue talking to my friends .. but i have too ... 

so i did continue talking but words start to jumble up ... 

i'm fill with emotions ... again ... 

reminds me the moment you walk away from my life in silence .. 

reminds me how i struggle my life through without you ..

reminds me the moment i saw you with her .. 

reminds me why am i still posting about you now ... 

reminds me that you still affect me .. 

got no mood to write anymore ... 

Not much .. too little ...

third day of Oct ..
how are you ? 
i've been listening to the same song all over and over and over again ... for this two days ... 
it's not because of i'm crazy ... but the meaning of the song reminds me of memories ... 
things that i had let go few months ago ... 
i would just sit or lie on my bed the whole day.. listening to this song and it will bring me back to flashbacks ... 

it hurts ... 
this song ----->不多 .... By Nic  ... made me feel like crying again ... 
tears had stop long ago ... i don't feel the pain neither the sadness because I'm fine with it .. 
i had get over it .. Lolo perfectly find ..  
but not for long till i listen to this song ... 
this song can reflect both side .. 



你能给的不多 你能爱的不多 ( ni neng gei de bu duo , ni neng ai de bu duo)
you told me i cant give you much .. neither loving you much .. 

你的不多 卻把我無止盡淹沒 (ni de bu duo, que ba wo wu zhi jin yan mo)
and because of not giving enough  ... you walk away in silence and left me with nothing ...
but all i need was ... not as much as you wanted ... all i wish is a simple love ....
我需要的不多 我渴求的只是爱的经过 ( wo xu yao de bu duo, wo ke qiu de zhi shi ai de jing guo)


sometimes .. i just dont feel like falling in love again .. because i'm afraid of falling and hurting myself again .. 
but sometimes i do wish to find someone that can give me what i wish .. a simple love ... 

ps.. this is how i feel about the song .. might not be the exact meaning of it .. as everyone might have differetn feelings listening to the song ... =)






Love ,
Lornalsq

Oct ^.^

its October !!!! 2nd day of Oct ...
nothing changes ...
hopefully will be a great month ..
ohh yaa ... just both a cd that i had been crazy finding it everywhere ... and finally i got it  ..
happy me ..
Nic's , Let's not fall in love again .... Nice .. me likey =)
 meaningful ... somehow ... the lyrics relate to my situation =)