Dear Sis

Dear Sis,

If you get to know about this post ... most probably you will read it and scold me or you will keep it in the heart and pretend that you know nothing about this or you will punch me on my face .... but no matter what's the outcome .. i'll still continue writing this ...

there is something that i wish you would know .. but if we were talking face to face .. nothing will come out from my mouth ... i'll only scream as loud as i can in my heart ... i know this had been a very sensitive issue between us .. because we will definitely end in a quarrel after this topic of conversation ... this happens every time without fail ... you know what hurts me the most after we fight is not about the words that we use to scold each other .. but to see that my sis is still not awake from something that i think is a waste of time ....

Sis, you had been the greatest sister that i could ever find in the world ... no matter what happen, you will be there for me and i'll be there for you too .... we are always together no matter what happen ... nothing could change between us . cause we are sisters ... nothing could change this fact of life ...

here i would like to tell you that ... something in your life wasn't suitable for you .. i bet by now you will know what i'm trying to say already .. and i'm not afraid to say so ... he is a fucking asshole that mess up your life ... i don't care you are angry that i called him that ... cause go ahead .. if it is because of a guy that you hated me than is okay ... i'll know how much a sister mean to you ...

he give you nothing .... his friends is 100% more important than you ... what is you to him ??? a driver that he need ??? a driver that send him to college, home, to everywhere that he want to go ??? seriously i hate the fact that fetch him using our petrol money .... you told me that he did reimburse your petrol money .. remember what you told me few days ago ??? you are the one who pay for all the petrol ... WTF !!!!! i'm so pissed when i know about it .. but i didnt voice it out at that moment ... OR a jacket that he need when he is cold ??? a toy that he played when he is bored ??? OR he think that you are rich and hope to get some from you ????? whatever it is .. i don't wish to know.

Sis, do you remember we used to go our Kayo-kai meeting ??? what we had learnt from it about relationship ??? those that happen in yours ??? did you both actually learn from each other and grow together into a better person .. ???? did you look at him and feel being inspired to do better in life ??? did you see future in his eyes ?? (not your future with him as in marriage and such)  but his own future ??? what he wanted to achieve in  life ??? what is his path of success ?? did you ever see all this in his life ???

my answer to all the questions i mentioned is NO !!!! He doesn't lead you to happiness but dullness and sadness .. had you ever noticed that you had rarely smile as youalways do ... you had rarely be as crazy as last time ... BRITNEY IS HALF GONE !!! you are not you anymore ... you are not the sister that i used to play with .. where are you ... i see you being upset .. being disappointed because of him ... sometimes i really feels like scolding him nicely but this is your relationship .. i respect it .. but not him .. i respect you as my sister and you will handle your life by yourselves ... i will not interfere it ... so i had choose to keep my mouth shout whenever our family talks about it him ... i'll ignore it as if i know nothing ...  because he show nothing that assure me that he is a good guy ... i'm sorry that i'll never accept him as part of our family ... I'm sorry sis ...

that is all i would like to say ... its just my feeling .. you can carry on with it .. it doesn't mean that i'm trying to destroy your relationship ... because i had just told you that i will not interfere .. but he SHOULD NOT cross the line ...

Sorry sis if this post hurts your feeling ...

Love,
Lornalsq

MY NEW TOY !!!!!!

LET ME INTRODUCE YOU TO MY NEW LITTLE TOY !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

its an early birthday present from my dad .. 

hehehehe

My life ...

weeeeee ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

its 1st of August 2011 !!!!!!!

which means my internship will end in 1 month time ... *blink blink * time flies ...

AAAAWWWwwwww ~~ i'll miss Dorothy the most ...  my best kawan at office ... 

we can laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh for the whole day .. of course we do work also .. 

so how's life ???

nothing special lo .. working life .. still boring ...

haha ... here comes my feelings ... 

this blog ain't normal if there isn't any post on my feelings .. 

so while all my friends are still worried about me ... 

i'm trying my best in letting go of it ... 

or i should say .. not trying but had already doing so .... not that difficult actually .... 

its just the matter time ... plus i'm surrounded by supportive family and friends around me ... 

i had moved on ... 

i woke up everyday with a smile ... wishing my day would be great ... 

and YEAH !!!! my day fills with laughter and love from everyone around .... 

even though sometimes that 'aunty' annoyed me ... but i had choose to ignore her .. the best way to live is to be happy of who i am and to ignore others' annoying behavior because they are who they are .. 

thats all for now ... =)

Love, 

Lolo