thank you for being a 'good' friend of mine ..

how real are you ????

while you are still wondering why i asked so ... 

continue reading the post ....

imagine you are standing in middle of a cross road .. where there are millions of people crossing the road ... people which you may not be familiar with or people which u may know ... not important .. but can you see who they really are deep inside ...  ???? 

you may face the same person every second ... minutes ... hours ... days .. weeks ... years ... forever and yet you may not know the person ... and you will be afraid of how real they could be when they were with you ..
some people may seems to be extremely sweet , nice , kind , friendly and kind-hearted but once you're not around they transform to an evil devil thats talks bad about you .... or even betray you ...
this not the first time where this problem encounters my life ... its been countless time .. but i do still get sick of it .. and i'm sad about it ..
what did i do wrong till you would talk bad about me and almost everyone know about it ... if you are not satisfied with what i did .. i would appreciate it if you confront me about it .. and i would like to listen to it ...
if you claim that i'm unfriendly then you are wrong .. and you don't know me ! if you said i'm snobbish .. i'm super ordinary and i don't seek attention much in class ...
if you say i'm fierce .. i may agree but its just because i don't smile a lot ...
i had think the whole day but i seriously cant figure out what i did wrong ....
all i know is .. i treat u as my close friend but if you don't appreciate this friendship .. its your problem because i appreciate every friendship of mine ...
if this is what you trying to do to make me fall .. then i'm sorry because you will never succeed ..

Complicated

hmm ...
i've been thinking a few days what to write for my next post ..
i have a few topic in mind but somehow i cant turn them into words like i used to be ...
seems like there's lot of thing in my mind but i'm not sure what ...
one thing i'm sure is assignment is definitely the reason why i stressed out now ..
the other reason is .. hmmm ... you know what ... haiz ...

BAD DAY !!!!

*sigh* ............

while i was thinking how to start this post ... i was recalling what happen this evening ...

this is the worst and unluckiest day of my life ... 

agrhhh ... my poor little myvi ... 

ok .. this is what happen ...

11.30am - reach college as usual ... park my car IN SEGI'S CARPARK .. (outdoor, left wing, near Sri KDU)

12.00pm - class start ... 

3.00pm - class ended ... walk to car with SY, LS & Kwek ...

from far .. i noticed that my car is super dirty .. cover with dust and dunno what ... 

OMG .. I was wondering why my car get so dirty .... 

walk nearer .. dirtier ... and when i reach my car .. SHIT .. MY BACK WINDSCREEN HAD CRACK AND THE SIDE HAD COMPLETELY BREAK INTO PIECES !!!!!!  my heart fall onto the fall and break into pieces like the mirror ... Almost cry my lung out but i didn't ... 

this looks like its dirty rite ?? i wish it was ..

Its cracked and small pieces of glass is falling off 

when ever we close the door .. the small pieces of glass will fall off ... 

was clueless about what happen to my car .. called my mom .... she is super worry .. called dad ... and he got no reaction in the beginning .. then slowly got reaction.. =.= 

while waiting ...so we went to the security house to figure out what happen ... this is the hilarious part ...

Me: Kereta i park kat situ ( pointing towards the carpark area) ... cermin belakang saya sudah pecah !!!!!! so skrg macam mane ..

Security: kereta 8099 ar ???

Me: Bukan bukan .. W**8199 la ... apa jadi??

Security: ya la .. itu 8099 la ... 

Me: BUKAN 8199 la ..

Security: ok ok ... (went into the security house and search for a damn report book) ini la ... sudah report la ..

Me : sudah report ?? sape report ?? apa jadi ???

Security: tadi 10.30 ada saya punya rakan(security he mean) ada nampak .. sudah report ..

Me: 10.30 ???? ( if u notife just now .. i reach college at 11.30.. 10.30 i'm still at home watching CSI:NY with my sis) saya 10.30 belum sampai college la ... say sampai 11.30 ...

Security: bukan .. 10.30 buat report ( i guess he can see the future) 

Me: SAYA SAMPAI PUKUL 11.30 LA !!!!!!! ( I'm so pissed off and he keep on argue about what time i reach and all i wanted to know is what happen) SO APA SAYA  BOLEH BUAT ???!!!!!!!! MACAM MANE SKRG ?!?!?!

Security: said nothing but place back his damn and walk to my car ...

reach my car .

Security: tengok sini sudah pecah .. tepi sini .. ( point toward the side of my car mirror as if i cant see it myself)

Me: bukan tepi saja laa .. tengok semua sudah pecah !!! tengok sini ..

Security: bukan bukan tepi saja ( wth .. wear your glasses la .. everyone can see the whole mirror had cracked)

Me:*point point* tengok betul betul .. SINI !!!!

Security: he just walk of like that .. 

waaaa .. good service from the security ... i think he doesn't understand what i'm saying .. haha 

i wondered why the security can't see its fully cracked and yet still want to argue its just the side ...

still clueless right .. ask an idiot for answer .. he gave me rubbish .. don't worry you will get back from me one day ... then no choice and don't know what to do and who to find .. called euder for help .. asked to me to find kapten roslee ( i guess this is the spelling)

find him also difficult ... people throw me here and there .. finally found him ... went to see my car .... say it should be the work of next door ... Sri KDU is under construction .. so yah .. its their fault .. dad arrived when argue with them ... the project manager asked my dad to wait then kena scolding from my dad .. haha ... so at last they agreed to pay for the mirror ... cause if not my dad will sue them .. cause they didn't do fencing for safety purpose ..  this time cause my mirror to crack due to their carelessness .. will next time be injuring people ???  and yet nothing is done by segi or sri kdu... as usual they won't do anything .. haiz

so immediately my dad ask people to replace the mirror .. efficient .. 30 minutes and ta dah !!!! my car is fixed ... but still i'm super unlucky today .. SO FOR U GUYS WHICH PARK IN SEGI >> PLEASE DO NOT PARK YOUR CAR NEAR SRI KDU CONSTRUCTION SITE CAUSE YOU WILL END UP LIKE ME IF YOU'RE UNLUCKY !!! so good luck parking your car in segi cause when you are in trouble .. no one will help you but throwing you here and there .. 

two sad stories ... T.T

after all , love isn't something easy . I've heard many many many love story .. both good and bad relationship ... some are willing to let go of everything for each other .. some won't even sacrifice a single thing for the relationship to last . some doesn't realize that love is all around them .OPEN YOUR EYES WIDE PLEASE !

Isn't love suppose to be easy ?? Isn't love suppose to be simple ??? But WHY ?? Isn't love suppose to be something special between two person ?? why does old grandma and grandpa are still loving each other till the moment they leaves the world .. but why such romances does't happen now ? is it because of true love doesn't exists anymore or people are too selfish to give love ??
at the moment , i had heard 2 sad stories ..

firstly ... few days ago .. a friend of mine had fall and turn extremely  moody ..  because of something which had happen to him .. he had been loving a girl but also been rejected a few times. all the girl wanted was just to be a normal friend but if you know what happen between them .. i bet u'll think its more than that .. maybe the girl thinks that what she did was normal for her to do to guy friend but i know its not something normal for that guy . he had sacrifice not to say a lot but enough for a girl that he love . if it isn't enough for the girl , what does she want more ?? the star from the sky ?? all he blame now was his standard of life , wealthiness, his looks , education and almost everything that he can think of . if a girl only love what you have but not who you are , is this what you called love ? all i got to say was to wake up from this dream . i remembered there were once you told me that you are envy that i could stand up again from my pain and to be happy with my life . and i believe that you can do it like me . it wasn't easy but not that difficult . i had gone through the worst moment of my life bravely and so do you !

the other story was my ah ye story ... he was so so so in love few months ago with his gf ... and today i got to know that they just broke up ... i was almost shocked to death ... his problem with his gf was .. her gf's family doesn't allow her to be in a relationship and problem appears in going out and spending time and taking pictures together ... sound familiar to me ... oh ya ... it used to be my problem too but no longer is because i had stand up for it .. this reminds me of my previous relationship ... but this problem wont appear anymore . haha .. hmm .. poor ah ye .. must be sad now... all i could said was she is not the one .. but he is tired to find the one and to be in relationship ..  you doesn't need to search for true love but it will come by itself .. the more desperate you are the more difficult things will happen to you ..

maybe its difficult for the both of them now .. but supports from family and friends will heal their wound .. not all but part of it because you yourself need to find ways to heal up the wound ... its painful now .. still bleeding but it will eventually stop bleeding and heal ... and you will find back your happiness .. your wound heal when you are ready to stand up and continue your journey of life .. its okay to fall once for awhile because you will be stronger each and every time ..

so keep everything simple and nice ... all you should do is to wait patiently because if it is yours it will be yours and you will never lose it ... i now i've been repeating this but i believe that its all about fate , but if it doesn't allow then you got to accept the fact that the person is not the right one . i know its easy to say than doing it . i didn't ask you to let go or to give up on love but to appreciate it . all you need to do is to give love as much as possible and it will return to you . ( hehe .. i read this from a book) and i believe its true . LOVE

Will You ???

i had just finished watching drama again ... Hk drama ..

 The Mysteries of Love .. 

em .. cant remember the name in cantonese .. haha ... 

hmm ... quite nice ... romance .. wahahhaaha .... a little sad ....

after watching this drama keeps me wondering .. 

if a guy hurts you that much till you are willing to die for him when he leaves you ... 

and 

finally when you had get over it ...

and

 moved on ...

 he turns back and he claims that he still love you ...

Will you accept him again ??  

or

 will you marry him ???

lol ..

in drama sure happily ever after .. 

reality ...

will you ???

P.s. its all about drama .. nothing to do with me ... lol