Do Not Hurt Them

today wake up feeling a little down ..
seeing my sister being sad makes me sad too ..
even though I say I hate my siblings ... I don't really mean it ..
they are all my love .. I grow up taking care of them ...
seeing them cry or suffer are more painful than everything that I gone through ..
never hurt them .. whoever you are .. do not hurt them .. because I'll never forgive you ..

Betrayal ..

if what goes around comes back around ...
then mistakes that I made in relationships should had all came back to me ...
if all mistakes had came back to me then I should have finished suffering ...
but why ?? its still painful to think about betrayal everyday ..
been betrayed three times .. how many more along the way ??

I'm sorry that I made mistakes ...
I ignored someone that has been supporting me all the while ..
I don't mean to hurt anyone ..

please forgive me and let me be free from all this betrayal ..
i cant stand it anymore ..

hope for the best

Hi October !!!
rarely post on the first day of the month ..
time flies extremely fast ... in a blink of eyes .. its almost the end of the year ...
another 3 months we will step into 2013 ...
this 9 months .. a lot ups and downs ...
good news of course is academic results ... healthiness of my eyes ... let go of feelings that should have been forgotten two years ago ... and Taiwan trip ... my very first trip ..
bad news .. still heart broken for the third time ... well this time I told myself .. don't worry because this is the third time .. you should be used to it ..
used to people asking me when is my turn .. when will I bring someone home ..
all I got to say is not my luck .. not my turn ... haven't meet the right one ...
but I do prefer people not asking it ... because they reminded me how painful my heart is ...
reminded me things that I thought I had forgotten ...

hope things will be better and I can end this year with something beautiful ...