talking about fairness ..
bullshit .. never happen in my life ..
well I'll tell you why ..
so .. Valentine was yesterday ...
had fun with my friends ...
everything went well .. just one thing .. make me feel ... speechless ... don't really know how to describe ..
it's just that her bf is not around for some reason ... why is everyone (family) so worry about her ???
how is she ?? how is she ?? how is she ?? ask her !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! fuck !!!! why ask me ??? am i her ?? am i her ???? fuck fuck fuck ... all i feel like answering is fuck ...
every time this question been asked ... my wound gets deeper and deeper ... it's painful till i have to cry silently in toilet ... do you think Valentine is easy for me too ??? i might seems fine ... but is there any one of you ever know how i feel ??
how pity is not to have her bf with her this year ?? till u all need to be that worry ??? afraid she will simply think ??? fuck ... fuck
she has someone with her .. yes .. unfortunately .. they can celebrate this year valentine's day together .. if their love last .. they still have birthdays .... anniversary ... Christmas .. new year ... next year valentine ... still have many to celebrate ...
what do i have ??? i don't even get to celebrate any of it with him ... NO !!!!!! not even a chance ... i go through every of it alone ... There's no way for me to be with him .. Not even a little hope cause I can't even get close to him .. Have u guys ever ask how am I ???? Did u ??? No !!!!! Family ???? Don't even give a damn on me ... Will only remember my existence when help needed .. That's what I am to u guys ...
I'm sick ... Sick of being what I am now ... Many more unfairness ... No point to say it out loud here ....
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