My 100th posts .. ^.^

just realized I had 99 posts ... and this will be the 100th post ...

the funny thing is .. my instagram has 99 pictures and soon it will hit 100 pictures too ...

so 100 is my lucky number for today ??

haha ..

here comes story ...

Dear blog,

I had lost count of days .. days I had waited for him to turn back ...

I had gone through my emails ... and i found it .. dated 12/09/10 ...

from that date till now .. it's 524 days ..... the moment I realised it was 524 days .. my tears start to falls .. i can feel the pain in me ... it's so painful .. so so painful ... i realised i had keep myself away from it .. kept away but not forgotten neither had let go .... it's still here ... memories of you are still strong ... why can't it fades ???
please let me breathe .. please ... why am I still living in shadows .....
why it is so difficult to let go ???
maybe i shouldn't ...

write till here i seriously don't really know what to write .. i'm tired .. tired of writing ... tired of crying .. tired of hoping .. tired .. why cant i tell u .. talk to u .... like how we used to talk ... I miss u ...


the necklace you gave had changed colour ... seem like gonna rust .. the diamond had cracked .. maybe this the reason why everything fail ... because it doesn't work ...

I love you forever ... Even though you're not here with me .. Even though I know it's impossible to have you in my life again ... You will always be in my heart .. and this love will never fades .. you will own a part of my heart .. i'll go on with life .. you will always be part of it ... 

Love , 

Lornalsq