Can i start again ???

internship .. 

not that excited about it ... thought of going out to audit is better than stay in office doing prework ... 

but after i experience both .. both almost the same ... boring ... 

i started being so motivated on working and looking forward into it .. 

but things change ..

why ???

all i wanted is to stay focus on it .. and to do my very best  ...

but why ?? 

things keep pulling me down ... 

why do i have to struggle to work with my eye condition like this ??? 

will it eventually affect my performance ???
what can i do ??? 

can i start again with my faith shaken ???