9 days to exam ....
I'm seriously all stressed up and tensed !!! Too much to study but I can't blame .. Should had start from the beginning of the semester but too much distraction .. Can't blame on distraction because I let myself to be distracted anyway .
Sometimes I wonder is ACCA really that difficult or it's just a mind conditioning ? Maybe I've been mislead by other perception on it .. Whether it is really that difficult ? Me myself can't tell much ...
After failing last semester .. Confident fall drastically ... Gives me a perception that no matter how much I study will never be enough ! I can assure myself that I studied 101% more than anyone else but in return I get nothing ... The most hilarious joke in life ...
People around me always says that "you're gonna be fine because you are so clever and you study so fast .. You can surely do it" ... Clever ? I can assure you that I'm not .. All I do is to make an effort to be more hardworking than anyone else .. Make sure that I've study more than anyone else .. But I guess it's wrong to study hard .. Because people study smart ... How should I continue this study journey ? Is it too late to turnaround ? It is a waste if I give up now ?
Today I have been experiencing emotion breakdown .. I feel like crying and giving up ... Not the first time ..
Will I be able to overcome all this shit that I'm experiencing now and go to exam calmly and confidently ...
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